Epiphany

And, I'm back. :)

They never saw me.

The night death got drunk

So yeah,big shit that i got drunk.I read a very old email from an old time friend,and got very nostalgic and texted another friend of mine,good that i didn't call her up,which i was about to.I mean people these days.She just brushed me off saying Good to hear that,that i got drunk.What the fuck?Talk about bloody sarcasm.

I just wanted to call up someone and share how miserable i was feeling.I just wanted someone to cheer me up.I guess,i just chose the wrong person.Aaah well.Next time i'll know better.

...people show their love in so many ways...some call every day to share their daily news, others only once in a while to share their moments of downtime,which i was going to today...still some will offer their patience and advice while others are looking for a shoulder to cry on...and while everyday is not about fireworks and ardent declarations...its these moments that make you realize that you are truly blessed...or maybe not.

count me out.

before i ever get a chance,

before you see my heart,

before you let me get too close,

before my heart is in the picure...

too late...

count me out.

when im no longer of use,

when you dont need me to help hold you up,

when you find something else with a grander design,

when I've poured out all I have to offer,

when I have nothing left to count,

count me out...

You Are Austin

A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll. You're totally weird and very proud of it. Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way. Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

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You Are The Fool

You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world. Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead. You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world. Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith. Your fortune: You are about to embark on a new phase in your life. This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status. You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry. You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.

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Your Inner Muse is Thalia

You are most like this playful muse of comedy.Life is all about laughter to you, and you're a natural comic.You make people laugh until their sides split.And you're always up for some play time!

What Muse Are You?

No good deed goes unpunished
I learned that truth from you
After all we were put through
Drawn so close
Taken for granted
Torn to shreads so easily
Never given a chance to cherish what a wonderful thing we had
Never so much as a chance to know we had anything at all
It's funny how you miss things when they're gone
It's funny how you tend to help the people you miss
The people you'll never admit you still care about
It's funny when they don't even notice
It's funny when you realize it's really gone

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You are one cool cat. You let the good times roll
but also like to have fun but of course
slipping in that occasional cat nap.

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How am I suppose to feel
about the emotion appeal
of something I have no feeling for.

All it takes is one step
the closer you are
the harder you fall.
Isn't reaching for you goal
a better feeling than not trying at all?

Constantly being mislabeled.
Criticized by the hypocrites.
Take a look in the mirror.
You are exactly like me
whether you want us to be.
I'm just like you
doesn't really matter
what you try to do.
Just like me
you are constantly mislabeled
and criticize by the hypocrites.
The only difference is
I stand tall to what I believe
that's the only difference between you and I.
Conforming is the only thing you see
as a worthy possibility.

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Do I really want to know?
What this world has to offer.
Living in this cartoon show.
Laughing at others who suffer.
I close my eyes so I cannot see.
Happiness is far from free.
People living on selfish pride.
Their sins, they better hide.
Teacher's teaching. Sleeping with students?
The story is not congruent.
Father's love. Selling their own flesh?
How they’ll pay in their death.
Fed up with such suffering.
Ideas build, mind cluttering.
I’ve become too outspoken.
My road I have chosen.
A book on conspiracies.
Hidden by government beauracacy.(sp)?
It’s endless hope.
Being me is hard to cope.
They try to pay me off.
Hoping I’d cooperate.
Spread my disease as I cough.
This they cannot moderate.
They’ll see I was right.
Their day turning night.
Watch society as it falls.
Lead us into the hall.
Too materialistic? Too realistic?
Smile to my unknown.
My motives never shown.
But what do I know.
Isn’t this all just a put on show.

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do

We just had to ask
Maybe some one out of heaven
Would hear us down here

We couldn't bear to stand
How the people leave us waiting
For something up there

Oh, why did you leave?
and Why won't you come?
And save us again?

Come back to us spiders
Come uncrushed my hands
Let me sent beauty rain
And bring us love again, like you can

We just didn't know
Some one there outside of heaven
Heard us down here

We couldn't stand it here
Other people leave us longing
For something up there

Oh, why did you leave?
and Why won't you come?
And save us again?

Come back to us spiders
Come uncross my hands
Let me sent beauty rain
And bring us love again, like you can


So much time, we need to ask everything
How did it go, you need it I got it

Come back to us spiders
Come uncross my hands
Let me sent beauty rain
And bring us love again, like you can


I absoulutely love this song.
Moby-"Spiders"

Breathing :)

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the straps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication. Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

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No title yet this is just a huge venting poem, because i've been so upset the past week and one month i've finally crossed from mopey to pissed, but just for a moment. Now this is not about anyone...it's about everything. So dont email me or leave comments like "youre a fucking bitch blah blah blah" because i am just venting this means nothing really...its just so i dont scream at all, right?



You promised you be there forever, but never even bothered to show up at all
thanks for the everything and nothing you always gave to me
one more shot rolled back, to burn it all away, maybe it'll make me forget
then lets do it over again, my life's a child's ride
merry go round, up and down
I wish you could be here but you dont even want me around
hear my voice, see my eyes, i would cry for you, but i dont think you want me to
If you dont want me just tell me dont tiptoe like high school gossip
oh i love you so much ill stab you in the back
We're all hypocrits, we all talk shit, and smile once they come back
I maybe lower than you, but you are not that much higher than me
to push me down and make me feel like i have to stay there
this all is not on me
And dont tell me you dont need me because fine then
watch me leave
I dont stand up for myself but so much is going on i have no choice but defend
something to get this hurt and pain all out, without carving into myself
when i feel this bad you're the one i want here
but by your silence, i wonder if i ever meant anything at all

"Sometimes you feel like it would be really great, and warm, and comfortable to sit curled up with someone, but it's not going to lead to a snog-fest or anything like that."
That's how I feel.
"Sometimes you want to be friends with someone forever, but only friends. And only forever."


... and that's how you feel.

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

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