As I'm dying, this is the last picture in my head. When we were just starting out as friends all over again.

It is getting worse as I type.

So, yes. I have been away for a while, because I was having a pretty moderate time if not good. But, Now I'm back, all alone, in this hole. Thought for the day: I thought money was the hardest thing to give away, apparently it's not, it's TIME. You don't want to give time to somebody because you don't have enough love or respect for them, there could be another conclusion to this, when you are available for somebody all the time, they don't appreciate your value. Yes, now I'm valueless. I have no value, maybe I did not, before as well, but now I realize it. I have loved like there was no tomorrow. I really don't deserve anything. I have nothing to give to anyone anymore. I'm so heartbroken, and for the love of God, I don't know what's wrong with me, since last evening. I'm in so much of pain. I miss those moments. Those walks, those conversation. How does one start from the scratch, when his life has been turned upside down ? I need a little prayer. The love of my life is gone along with my best friend, and something just died in me.