I hate building anything from scratch, especially if I have put my heart and soul into something and then, that just goes away. I know it will, very soon. Not so soon, but soon enough to actually realize.

Mamu used to tell me not to make too many friends, he'd say make friends but only keep them at a distance, so that they don't get to set any expectation on you. Back then, I was like what a fuckin' loser man, but now. when all my realationships fail or just fizzle out, I begin to think.

I don't like it. It is untrue that everyone is alone in this world. Everyone has somebody, where is my someone? Where? I don't like being alone at all, and boy, I AM alone. :( :(

I don't know what to say anymore, because at this point of time, I am not feeling very good. I actually want to be pampered a bit, and if possible loved. :( :^(

'Get smart' is SUCH a smart made movie. Anne Hathaway, IS hot. Sort of reminded me of Kay.
There was not a single moment when I didn't laugh. Absolutely hilarious, considering I've not slept the entire night and today morning.

Today is such a nice day.

Some people spend their entire life, looking for some love.
Some people spend their entire life, trying to get over someone, they once loved.


Where am I, hanging between both? The answer is No.

After three seconds of thought, it's the second one. Yes, still.



Time.

Bad days.

I thought that feeling was gone, but from the past week, it's crept back again. I don't like it, and even though I'm very happy here, there is something lacking. Problem is, I know what it is.

Woman, bitch all you want. Because I won't be seeing your face ever, unless ofcourse I bump into you, and realise who you were.

Phoo.

Rub the grin

When I take out my debit card to pay, howcome you never offer to pay half of what you've eaten, or wasted? Why not, you should, should you, not?

It's not my fault, that you never have the money. It's not my fault when my text message clearly stated, that it is not a good time to come down and that you might as well, go home. But no, with you, it's all about, what others are going to think of me, isn't it?

I'm not here to party, neither am I here to take anyone's responsibility. I hate intrusive people in my life, I hate it when I am not given space. I hate it, when I have to answer about, where I'm going, what I'm doing, who my friends are, my room mate doesn't ask me such questions, for crying out loud.

I'm not responsible for your boredom, so stop making me feel gulity. Oh and I refuse to feel guity, anyway. I have my life here, and I don't want to carry excess baggages from my past. If you want to stop calling a 'friend' please be my guest.

And I seriously think, you should go back home, especially when you've told people, that you are travelling with me, I mean what in the world has hit you?

You are not the same person, I used to know.
Not that I am the same, anyway. But that's the whole point, here. Innit?

Smirk.

Just go, will ya? ;)

'You will know who I am, once you see me, again' That is what I said to her.

... after two months.

I don't get, what's the whole deal with people. I know of a such person, who uses you openly and she's very open about it, too. And then ignore calls, I mean what the bloody fuck.

And when she needs me, she'll go on calling me, like there's no tomorrow. I mean, it was okay when I was there in Calcutta, I'd let myself get used up, cause I didn't have better things to do in life, I was such a fuckin' low life, but not here, not this time, around.

I refuse to be with such people. And I shall not take your calls, anymore. Soon.