I miss you. I love you. Will it ever die out ? Tell me, NO!

Losing my wings.

In utter disbelief, I sit and cry at the choice she made. Him Vs Me. Always him, nothing changes in these seven years. Nothing. I for once even had the gall to ask her to make a choice, knowingly perfectly well what the outcome would be. Truth be told, I’m not surprised, I think, I’m a little disappointed at everything that panned out last night. Why isn’t there somebody who can handle me or my intensity? I feel so numb, even to get to the laptop, turn it on, and punch in some words took me nine and a half hours. I don’t have a friend left , I miss her terribly, but choices must be made, as firm as I have to be with her, I have to be with myself too, it’s not for my benefit, it won’t get me anywhere, I hope she realizes in time, that all I do, is for her. I tread alone, carefully. How does one even breathe? How do they live? How do they hurt, and not call back? How do you sit and see someone crying for hours, and not console, only thinking about how I would react. I don’t have words left, I’m hurting and you’ve been hurt. Hopefully, you will have your head and your guy, as you would like them. I sign off. Thanks for the love. All of it. Don't tell me, that I am taking the easy way out.