So i found you
found the way all through..

Monday, May 30, 2005

Somewhere there's a box,full of replacement parts,to all the tenderness,we've broken or let rust away.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
Please fill this out for me :)

She's falling down the stairs
she's tearing out her hair
she's screaming my name in the night
to keep her warm.

I do everything i can
to remove you,
but it hurts
and everything we started
its sorta beautiful

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

A broken heart will mend with time,So what is the cure for a broken mind?

Going, going, going

Don’t stop
Keep on doing
Doing anything
As long as it's something
Other than feeling
Feeling that again

Every thought
Turns into a task
And each gets done
But I'm never really done
Just onto the next thought
And task to be done

Don't dwell
Think about feelings
Feelings hurt to think about
Don't want to feel hurt
So just don't think
Think about anything

Going, going, going
Out of my mind.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Beech

Dont worry I will save us both.
I will sacrifice myself for you.
I know this will make you hate me.
But thats all i can do
I will make this mistake
Forget about forever
Cause its to much pain to get there
Just give up on me
I will make this mistake for you
Forget about me
Pretend it never existed
Please just hate me a little more
Make this easy for you
Don't hold your breath
I won't change
Don't hold on to it
It won't last
Forget this Love
Pretend it disappeared
Just say you never believed
Don't hope for the best
I will make this sacrifice for you
I will make this mistake
I will put this to rest
Your welcome.....


Hold my breathe and wish for something better then me to hold on to my soul. All I seem to be able to hold is my breath. I can't seem to keep you in my arms. Some say let your soul be free and you will be happy, so I shall sit here holding my breath. Hoping that my soul can find its way back to me before i die.


Come closer my Dear
Let us begin this simple symphony
Just us two
Lets make this new begining
Sing for me as our bodies play
Sweet sounds we'll make
No need for an audience
It's our private rehersal
Say your lines without missing a beat
Feel the sweat run down my back
Feel the lights heat
Look out into the emptiness
Only to see Black
But you'll know I am still here
When you feel my kiss
Its never the same feeling twice
I'll improvise this tear
As we open the door to our hearts
We'll step thru and pay the price
Here we are at the end of our stage
Can you still act like you love me



You said this was the last straw
So I set it a blaze
As I stood back and looked upon what I did in shame
I don't know what made me happier
Watching the ashes fall to the ground
Or seeing you scream and not make a sound
Go ahead and try
Try to pick up the pieces they have been scattered in the wind
Many be it will fit back together be better then before
Stronger reinforced with glue
You said no more chances
But I was feeling lucky
I put it all on the table
I thought I got a good hand
Too bad it was dealt to the wrong man
I don't know which is worse
Or knowing it was given up so easy
Go ahead and try
Try to win it all back
Maybe you'll win little more this time if you can
Take a chance you won't regret



Envelope of hope
Letters marked so delicatly
With such love and care
Little hints of "I love you" scattered on each page.
And with all this love
No one to trust......
Envelope of Mystery
Letters marked without a name
With such hope and faith
Little clues of "guess who" hidden in each sentence.
And with all these questions
No one to trust....
Envelope of Tragedy
Letters marked for the last time
With such sin and sorrow
Little clues of "I am sorry" explained in each word.
And with all this misery
No one to trust....
Envelope of Hope
Letters marked with tears
With such pain and regret
Little hints of "Please, forgive me" begging on every tear.
And with all these apologizes
No one to trust......

Tuesday, May 10, 2005





You Are A Realistic Romantic


You are more romantic than 60% of the population.






It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!


Monday, May 09, 2005

I do not feel anger
For this betrayal
As one would expect,
I have past the point of wrath.
There are no answers,
There are no questions,
Just the facts and the reality
Of this mortal flaw.
My body is now the enemy
And my mind the prisoner of war.

Friday, May 06, 2005

My, how ugly I feel today.
Repulsive
I cannot bear to see my reflection
In the hallway mirror
So I scurry past with my head down
All around me I hear laughter
Mean spirited and loud
Cackling at me
But there is no one here
It is only an echo bouncing off the darkness
If I would have known
What today would be like
I would have stayed wrapped up
In my nightmares
Which at least I knew would end when the sun rose
The things that scare me
In the light of day are much worse
Because they are real…
They are me.