I do not really understand the rush of doing everything right now. The present matters so much for me. Or is it because in my head I do know, my feelings for something/someone wouldn't stay the same if not acted upon right then.

I used to be friends with this person. We were extremely close and then something happened, and we fell apart. Then after one year we got back in touch, but it's never the same from my side anymore and coming to think of it, I couldn't ever imagine the world without her.

She was the only one among my friends, who really and totally understood, loved and cared for me, or so I felt. But phusssssssssssssssssssssssssssh. :(