Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I… that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need… I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me – when – I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me…

Where are we now?
I've got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own - Sometimes you cannot make it on your own, U2.

..and now that she’s gone

There’s no one else to blame

And the space she left behind her

Bleeds like an open vein.. - Can you hear me ? U2.

Lie.

Ohgod !! I have tanned SO much, shit. My face and my arms. Damn !! :( :(

I still don't get sleep after running around so much. I'll miss the CG Block. :(

8am- Jump out of the bed
8:45am- Rush out of the house
9am- Take a bus to Sector V
10am- Enter work
6pm- Take a bus to Gariahat, visit mom
7:30pm- Walk the whole stretch from Dover rd to my house
8pm- Scream at my maid
9pm-1am- SPACING OUT.
2/3am- In bed.

All I'm saying is don't give up, when you're getting so close. All I'm
saying is don't give up, it's the right way you chose.

Today has been a totally 'No' day.

I don't know why and I'll never know.

This day will die tonight and there ain't no exception
We shouldn't wait for nothing to wait for
Love me in this fable, babe, my heart is in your hand
Our time is waiting right outside your door
And maybe tomorrow is a better day

This shit doesn't seem alright.

Every day I walk those streets and think, it's going to be different, it's going to change. But everyday I come out of that place, more fucked up, and it's still the same.

I had forgotten my priority for at least five years straight, and I realized this on Wednesday night, when I went there. Same old place.

What was I so busy with anyway, people ?

Most go away with time, some change, the ones that remain get fucked and fuck others up in the process.

It's hard to find
Hard to find
Hard to find the strength now but I try
And I don't want to
Don't want to
Don't want to go on and speak now
Of what's gone by
Cos no matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened

You just slipped through my fingers
And I feel so ashamed
You just slipped through my fingers
And I have paid

My phone play list consists of the following:

'In the waiting line' by Zero 7, OST - Garden State.
'Strange and beautiful' by Aqualung, OST - Wicker Park.
'A natural disaster' by Anathema.
'Maybe tomorrow' by Stereophonics, OST - Wicker Park.
'Guardian angel' by Lovex.
'Diary of Jane' by Breaking Benjamin.
'Light switch' by Jaime Wyatt, OST - Wicker Park.
'Let go' by Frou Frou.

And not to forget Katatonia and POTF.

So trippy !! :P

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place
In the diary of Jane.

Wait in line
'Till your time
Ticking clock
Everyone stop

Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me

Woooohh
Do you believe
In what you see
There doesn't seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe in
What you see

Nine to five
Living lies
Everyday
Stealing time
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can

Woooohh
Do you believe
In what you feel
It doesn't seem to be anybody else who agrees with me

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

Ah and I'll shout and I'll scream
But I'd rather not have seen
And I'll hide away for another day

Do you believe
In what you see
Motionless wheel
Nothing is real
Wasting my time
In the waiting line
Do you believe
In what you see

Everyone's saying different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Different things to me
Everyone's taking everything they can
Everything they can

Yet again, it's my fault, all my fault.

Always have been, always will be. :) :P


I don't know my friends anymore, or may be I know them too well, if I can so well predict their steps. So much for love ? ;)


Sheer disappointment,
But like I say, I'm happy if it makes them happy, even though I know it's momentary happiness for them.

Sigh !!

Such self control, I have. :) :)

I am so proud of myself. :D :P

.. and suddenly everyone is in town.

Partaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy !!

What fun. :P

Look into my eyes
It's the only way you'll know I'm telling the truth

Last night was bad, just couldn't sleep at all, no matter how much I tried. Sorry to put you in a position where you have to handle the two of us, with our 'issues.' It's not fair on you especially when you are still coping with your 'situation.' I know it isn't, but I can not help it. I have tried so much not to talk about it, not to care, to be nonchalant, but it isn't working, this time around.

All of a sudden it feels like the end of the '06 and beginning of '07, though the situation were completely different. And the worst part is, I know all that is happening, but my mind refuses to understand or is it my heart, again ?

Sleepless and I have work today.

Two more days to go. :D

I miss SB and SG.

I want Muffin. :(

You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself. -Breakfast at Tiffany's.

It's nice when someone knows, what exactly makes me jealous, but I hate it when I have to show it, it's not me. And then there is always the eternal question, what if ?

I have discovered. Lovex !! :P :P :P :P

Yay !!


Through the darkness and broken glass
I'll come for you, if you only ask
And there I'll stand
Just for you

She says, I always forget my immediate past too soon. Well, I guess she is right, now my mother and she would gel on this statement. :)

Sigh !!