Somehow the smile has gone away from my face, they keep saying that at work. I have been told by three people already and it's just been a week, not even that.

Yesterday at smoke break. Sandy looks at me funnily, and says

S: Is something wrong?
T: Why'd you ask?
S: After last Friday, you don't smile neither do you talk to anyone at work
T: Yeah that incident, just don't remind me. I'm still regretting it.
S: Chill maari, that's what you call life.
T: *smiles* I guess.

I've made the biggest mistake of my career, last Monday. I don't know what I was thinking.

I shall never forgive myself for this one. :( :(

Sandy, me and my work. :(

I don't believe myself, all I do these days is, dream about work, wake up and think about it. :(

Zom and RB is coming to B'lore for two months. Yay!!!

.. and I thought putting up conversations on the blog was attention seeking?

Bitch.

Stop crying your heart out!!!

One of those lil' rare random games we used to play. Out of the blue, I'd say 'if you were to choose between... which one would you go for?'

Classic Menthol/Marlboro?
Menthol.

H Street/Saltlake?
H Street.

Chicken Biryani/Beef stake?
Biryani.

Coffee Pai/T3?
Coffee Pai.

Party: BYOB/SPE?
BYOB (at your place).

Now if anyone were to ask me to choose between 2004 and 2005/2006 and 2007, I'd go for the former. Sleepovers, the four of us,(whoever the other two would be) fights, late night movies, walking the entire stretch of Elgin Road at one am, Darjeeling, Diwali/Aids party, 31st, when you got drunk and ran around with an apple, heh. 'Woh Lamhe,' birthday parties, din din at Cal club, Jalepenos, (sp? the initial days) Bakery carnival, checking out hot guys/girls together, H Street CCD, Xaviers, Who's line is it anyway? Spongebob Squarepants, I know what you did last summer, lying down on the terrace OR sitting near the door while the sky looked down on us, walks to Landmark every evening followed by you hogging Raj Kachauri. Now comment and tell me, (if you find the post that is)how much of your true self have you lost in this bargain of life?

I miss that honesty, I miss you telling people, how blunt/honest we are, with each other.
Best friend, extended family and support system!

People like me miss you, and then they make an effort, but reality hits hard when I realise, everything I do at the end of the day is futile, atleast anything in regard to you.

Those were the best days of my life. Botton lineis, you forgive people for abusing you, you forgive people for letting them use you, you forgive people , who makes you cry, you forgive people who lets you travel alone in a cab, (given those days)when you were drunk, just on the eve of your birthday, but...

You never forgive the person, who stood by you, all along, because you were too blind?????
No.
Because I was a sidekick, and you were having your share of fun.

Obsession..

M is right, I should just STOP obsessing, but the question is how? It's hard, I try so much, but I cannot, normally, I don't think much, but then there are times, I just can NOT.

But then again, if I was really obsessing, I'd go to the length of stalking, etc.. which normal obsessers do, but I don't do anything of that sort, I just think, is thinking and crying over it, that bad?

Someone help me, I say again.
It is easier said than done.

Epiphany

And, I'm back. :)

They never saw me.

The night death got drunk

So yeah,big shit that i got drunk.I read a very old email from an old time friend,and got very nostalgic and texted another friend of mine,good that i didn't call her up,which i was about to.I mean people these days.She just brushed me off saying Good to hear that,that i got drunk.What the fuck?Talk about bloody sarcasm.

I just wanted to call up someone and share how miserable i was feeling.I just wanted someone to cheer me up.I guess,i just chose the wrong person.Aaah well.Next time i'll know better.

...people show their love in so many ways...some call every day to share their daily news, others only once in a while to share their moments of downtime,which i was going to today...still some will offer their patience and advice while others are looking for a shoulder to cry on...and while everyday is not about fireworks and ardent declarations...its these moments that make you realize that you are truly blessed...or maybe not.

count me out.

before i ever get a chance,

before you see my heart,

before you let me get too close,

before my heart is in the picure...

too late...

count me out.

when im no longer of use,

when you dont need me to help hold you up,

when you find something else with a grander design,

when I've poured out all I have to offer,

when I have nothing left to count,

count me out...

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No good deed goes unpunished
I learned that truth from you
After all we were put through
Drawn so close
Taken for granted
Torn to shreads so easily
Never given a chance to cherish what a wonderful thing we had
Never so much as a chance to know we had anything at all
It's funny how you miss things when they're gone
It's funny how you tend to help the people you miss
The people you'll never admit you still care about
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How am I suppose to feel
about the emotion appeal
of something I have no feeling for.

All it takes is one step
the closer you are
the harder you fall.
Isn't reaching for you goal
a better feeling than not trying at all?

Constantly being mislabeled.
Criticized by the hypocrites.
Take a look in the mirror.
You are exactly like me
whether you want us to be.
I'm just like you
doesn't really matter
what you try to do.
Just like me
you are constantly mislabeled
and criticize by the hypocrites.
The only difference is
I stand tall to what I believe
that's the only difference between you and I.
Conforming is the only thing you see
as a worthy possibility.

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Do I really want to know?
What this world has to offer.
Living in this cartoon show.
Laughing at others who suffer.
I close my eyes so I cannot see.
Happiness is far from free.
People living on selfish pride.
Their sins, they better hide.
Teacher's teaching. Sleeping with students?
The story is not congruent.
Father's love. Selling their own flesh?
How they’ll pay in their death.
Fed up with such suffering.
Ideas build, mind cluttering.
I’ve become too outspoken.
My road I have chosen.
A book on conspiracies.
Hidden by government beauracacy.(sp)?
It’s endless hope.
Being me is hard to cope.
They try to pay me off.
Hoping I’d cooperate.
Spread my disease as I cough.
This they cannot moderate.
They’ll see I was right.
Their day turning night.
Watch society as it falls.
Lead us into the hall.
Too materialistic? Too realistic?
Smile to my unknown.
My motives never shown.
But what do I know.
Isn’t this all just a put on show.

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do