What I wouldn't do wasn't important at all, just my name not being on that list last last night, was KILLING. All of my closest friends' names were there, most deserving, some not.

Alvin Sebastian
Saurav Kumar
Soumya Biswas
Pratik Chopra
Debasmita Paul
Shantanu Mitra
Amritanuj De
Rajdeep Ghosh
Dev Karmakar
Sriparna Das (WTF :x), etc.

Lesson six.
It takes real courage to keep your mouth shut. Silence.

Bloody hell, I'm suddenly tripping on "Baby" by Justin Bieber, not cool at all. :@

Tonight's dinner with KSC and Debb at Bar B Q was absolutely brilliant. We chilled after AGES! Two months ? Exactly that.
Can't wait to move out. Early morning conversation at 5:30 still remains, unfinished. :)

Lesson five.
It's only the last thing you say/do, that stay with people, everything else is literally washed away from their minds.

So, it wasn't a long night after all, passed out at 1 am, then rushed to work at 6, played a lot of Cricket at work with Al, Prat, Pranjaali, Aditya and SK, drank a lot of Orange juice, watched Gods must be crazy, part 2. Met A and P after work, went to R's and then came home, chatted a bit with Debb, too.

I want Sunday, Sunday. Sooooooooooooooooooooon. :D

Tonight is a going to be a long night without you.

SK- I don't understand the deal with you guys and Bangalore.
Me- Nothing, it's just that, I really like the place. *After a long pause* Hang on, it's not what YOU think. She and I have always been crazy about that place, I worked there for a while and she had her college. :@
SK- Away from home, IS away from home. I still don't get it.
Me- Check this out *points to something on the screen* Hope THIS makes you happy.
SK- It's NOT about me, it's about YOU.
Me- Please shuru korish naa, abar.

Then, later on.
Me- Stopitstopitstopit.
D- Ki holo ?
Me- Nothing, mood off.
D- I've heard about Pune and Chennai.
Me- And, Bangalore, too ?
D- Yes, of course.
Me- GOOOOOOOOOOD. Then be careful with your affections.
D- I hate you.
Me- It's cool, noproblem. I have to go now.
D- *Walks off*
SK- Okay, what's wrong ?
Me- Nothing, asked her to be careful with her affections for me. :@

Dessert wine! :P

Yesterday morning was one of the recent best days, I've had. D and I went to the CJ block, changed my address and then auto'd it to Ultadanga, and then to Haatibagan, stopped and had Lassi/Mango shake and then walked it to her place, talked about moving to Pune, and made me promise I wouldn't even think of going to Chennai, not even for training. Spoke about going on a ride from the Airport to MG Road, Bangalore, and then she taking me out to dinner. :P

Then, in the evening.. Whiskey/Mango Rasna/Apple juice and Gin at P's, which led to everyone passing out and hating "Drew Barrymore." :|

This week, I get to see D only for three days. Out of sight, out of mind, AGAIN. :P

Ohohohohoh! Priyanka Chopra was in town yesterday. :P :P
*faintssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss*

Spiderwick cronicles.
London.
Red road.
Wild things.
In the bedroom.
The rite.
Alice in Wonderland.
Respire.
Insidious.

I miss you so much that it doesn't hurt anymore, it just aches. Because, I have stopped feeling for you, I didn't give you two reactions you would have loved to see from me, today morning. :)

It's all so personal, no ? I'm so glad, we didn't fuck it up. I didn't fuck it, I can still turn around and say, you mean so much to me, when you don't, actually.

Blacklisting numbers for calls/sms' on the phone is so much of fun. Ohgod, I love these new phones. :D

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Everything repeats itself. It's amazing that everybody thinks things are new, but it's all a repeat.

At Eleven thirty in the morning, I realized that the "ATM ate my card once again." This time while texting Debb, last time, it was while I was on the phone with her.

So, finally THAT card is gone, and I'm so lazy. I feel sick to think, how many accounts I have to link my new card with, once again. Twice in two months. Damn!

I have become irresponsible, I harassed my manager/Tl and my mother, please kill me. And, blamed a couple of friends, for playing with my card. :@

Card-less and broke for the next nine days. I need to sleep on this, too.
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh, I hate HDFC atm machines. :X :X :x :X

Okay, I need to be less distracted. I was so emotional about THAT card. :(

Is it me or ... ? :@

Has no one ever noticed a resemblance between Priyanka Chopra and Angelina Jolie ? I mean, come on..

Someone, anyone ? Wtf! :X

Tum mile.
One fine day.
Jacob's ladder.
Hancock.
The invention of lying.
Guzaarish.
The number 23.
Memories of murder.
Rajneeti.

No surprise was a big surprise, after all.

I am not extra ordinary either, not that I ever thought myself, to be. "Special/unique" always had a demented ring to it, IMHO.

It's true, as I always knew, when you are with someone, you don't care about your friends at all, friends do come around after a while, (or that they are always there, but you are too blind to see them)but you don't care at all, I didn't either. (And all you can hear is them complaining, how your other half, managed to kick your friends out of your life)

I still don't. But, I know who is around and who is not. But, I don't have much time to give them. I'm really terribly busy with just one person, and I know, I'm loved back in return. I feel it. I hope my friends, understand. :)

For so many years, I have truly looked in the wrong places, in wrong people, some pretended to understand me, some were upfront. Heck, I don't even like acknowledgments anymore, four months, and this is me, today. :D

Winter of 2010- April'11. :)

Out of sight, is SO out of mind. Damn me! FML.

Five days a week and nine and a half hours or even more, if I am very lucky.

Just when I thought I'm going use my classic line. Tonight, my love, you'll have to make do with a single distraction.

DP, knew what I was thinking. :P

I've found MY Pog!

Tonight, I'm breaking the chain. Am, I happy ? Not really, but I'm glad, I can now control the things/feelings, etc whatever that I want to. I have control.

And, of course the lesson number two, must always be kept in mind.

Twenty- fourth December changed my entire life, I walked into that room with three people, then. That night changed something in me. I'm so glad, I was there.

Fifteenth February night was the end of that. But, I have control. So, I'm now happy, in a different way, of course.

On, a different note. I hope for you to come down ASAP.

Lesson four.
The truth lies in what you actually feel and not what you've known/seen/assumed in your life.

Just for $99. That's some neat shit! :)

Chilled last night with the extended family. I'm so fond of Ponch's boy (finally, she makes a good decision ?) and it's not even funny, gossiped away the entire evening/night on the terrace, he made us drinks (Vodka with Slice)lit our smokes, bought us Red bull and Biriyani and watched movie with us and then passed out. :)

And, aunty is back! :) :)
And, zom is in a relationship. This year is just SO fab!

I miss you 311 and the gang. :*

Heat rash, I hate ye! :|

Narci is back :D

Nightout at Ponch's was a good thing, met the boy she's been seeing and he IS a sweetheart, three of us went for a spin on his Enfield, reminded me of Pog so much, the hair, the structure the way he speaks in Bengali. :)
Hung out at CCD, bumped into Debdatta after what seemed like ages, went for Chinese dinner to Pen n Ink (Chinese with Carlsberg) and then he made hookah for her, we lazed around on the terrace, catching up on everything, watched a movie, while he snored and then crashed at 6:30 in the morning.

Feels like, I was there all along, or maybe one of us just went on a long long vacation. :P
Told her how much, I bitched about her to everyone, while she was gone, heh. ;)

Grrr...

Don't know what to do. :|
I know he's not good for me, KCS, Debb, Vij, etc have told me, and I also know the truth, but on the other hand, he is giving me such practical advices when it comes to her. And, for the first time in ages, I have vented out to Sand online, can't wait to see him Friday morning, and tell him everything, that's been happening.

Should I really leave him ?
I know he doesn't like the fact, that I put her on a pedestal, but I'm at my wit's end, yet again! :|

Not a good situation.

V.E.N.T

Goal- The dream begins.
Goal 2- Living the dream.
Goal 3- Taking on the world.
Iris.
Gladiator.
Once upon a time in Mumbai.
Bourne identity.
The fighter.
Bourne supremacy.
Bourne ultimatum.

KCS and VDK- I'll tell you something, your friends are not good.
Me- I know, I have heard about him. What can I do ?
KCS- Just be careful, he is not good.
Debb- Ki holo Puchush ?
Me- Same thing, how my friends are not good.
Debb- I'm not dead yet, why so much of chaap ?
Me- No chaap baby, no chaap. :)

A spin at 6:30 in the morning on Pulsar 220. :)
Whatanamazingride!

I was rude. I blew smoke into her mouth, and it's a big thing for someone who does not smoke. :|

Just call me and everything is going to be fine. I'll pretend like nothing really happened, but YOU have to make the call, not me. Never me. Not anymore. :)

Wacky!

Twenty-four Carlsberg and a bottle of Port wine. :P

Yesterday was a very good day. Met up Ponch after 4 years, ate Chicken Stronganoff, cold coffee and dessert at Creperie`, catching up is always fun, and some things do stay, we went over to her place, met her dad, Blue and Mumble and talked so much to her, aunty was missing. :( :( Went through a lot of photographs and video. :)

Rushed to work to meet the gang. I love you guys, Debb, PC and KCS. :P :P Made a sale of around $300. :)

Tomorrow's Bharat's farewell party at Soumya's. :( :P

You have turned me into a better person. :)

First you listen to your heart, then you listen to your head, and then your girl friend will tell you what to do. :|

Study, work, party and other things. :D

I'll miss 311. But, it'll stay, I know.

Kungfu Panda.
Pheobe in wonderland.
The life of David Gale.
Dabangg.
Paranormal activity.
Taken.
The ugly truth.
How to train your dragon.
Closer.

Yay! Now, I have a RED converse.

So the guy at the Levis' store after Debb's CC and DC declined because of the server problem, I wanted to try out with my card

Guy- Who's signature ? (At the back of my card)
Me- Hers
Debb- Hers
Me- Err, mine ?
Debb- Hers. :| :| :|
Guy- Okay, there's a server problem.

And today, the five of us almost got kicked out of Inox.
Fun day. Impromptu beer plan and then a movie. ;)

It's going to be an exciting day, today. :P

My mood seems to depend on the weather.

Dhur dhur dhur, I suddenly miss the past two months, I think how lovely it was and how it will never be the same, but I am glad for one thing, I can try/do anything with this situation, and the results will all differ.

The result will differ, this I like.
I really miss you, everything about you. I miss you jabbering away to glory and me just smiling silly, I miss the fact how we shared everything, and we know so much about each other, now. I hate my offs, I hate not seeing your face.

I just like the person you are, if there was anybody, who was able to change me in such a short time, it's you. The reason is you. :)
The other day you buzzed and said you had loads to tell me, but all I did was leave, but I have loads to tell you too.

Maybe someday, when I feel like it. Maybe someday when I feel you will be ready to listen like before. :)
I like you a lot. I'm glad, we didn't make any silly mistakes concering us. :P
So, totally uncomplicated.

I have to leave now.
:)

This is what it is, and what will be. :P

I'm going to really wait for the day, when you are going to turn to me and say, Soumya'r baari jaabey ? or maybe for a good cause extend korbey ?

Till then, I count.

Forbidden fruit….got a problem with that?

We went to SPE last night, where the scene was boring, walked out and went to this Karaoke bar and boy it was SO wild.

Had this Mexican hot wine and went absolutely crazy, it was SO fucking wicked.

And, then took the mike and sang, someone who can't sing to save her life or someone else's.

Well you burst on the scene
Already a legend
The unwashed phenomenon
The original vagabond
You strayed into my arms
And there you stayed
Temporarily lost at sea
The Madonna was yours for free
Yes the girl on the half-shell
Would keep you unharmed.


Life is good, so I must be in a wrong lane ?
But, I have a stiff neck now. :|

So, those two were talking about maach as usual and what they had for lunch, and I was making faces at them, and then suddenly...


Debb- What's wrong ?
Me- I don't like this topic, change please ? I only like Ilish, Parshe, Rohu, Tengra and Chingri, thassit.
Debb- Of course, of course. :| :| Bhalo maach diley, sobai'e like korbey, Putush.
Me- Hahahahahahahahahahahaha, this is a good one, very original.

Came home and told my mother this, and she also started laughing. ;)

Got bitten by Snow. :( Almost fell down in the loo.

At a certain point in your life, probably when too much of it has gone by... you will open your eyes and see yourself for who you are... especially for everything that made you so different from all the awful normals. And you will say to yourself... But I am this person. And in that statement, that correction, there will be a kind of love.

Well, if you want something really bad, you have to pray. Or do something you hate, and God will see you deserve it

FUCK, NO!

- Exactly the way, I like you.







Dear God,
I want either of the two. I want him (M) to call her up and say he loves her still, please please please. Or, let her just get bored of K (the thing we spoke about)
Your favorite child,
Me.

Lesson three.
Only when you move away, can you see a better picture.

- At KC's.

So, we took Debb out on V day for dinner to Haka's, my favorite joint. :P

And yesterday morning, I very conveniently left my debit card inside the machine and walked out, and my mom pointed out after 24 hours, that the card was not to be found in the wallet, first I blamed KC for getting drunk and playing with my card and then he said it was the wallet, he was playing with and not the card for once, and then I realized I left in the ATM machine. :|

So, I went to the ATM, the guy said it was already in Stephen house in Dalhousie, either I could go today to retrieve it, or I could wait for 7 days to get it couriered to my place, the same card.

I didn't even wait. I wanted THAT card itself, my card had Debb's signature and it needed to be with me ONLY. I went absolutely crazy today afternoon. It feels good to be cared and loved, I've always wanted it. :) Reminds me of '04.

Chalking out a plan to take up a 1 BHK rented place. No staying, only hanging out with friends and get togethers and sleepovers on week offs/ends.

Fell in Love with Soumya's and KC's place. :| Debb and I are begging them to keep us as flat mates.
Soumya's place totally reminds of Zom's in KR Puram, Bangalore. People come, stay over, cook food, laze around, watch movies, gossip, music, smoke, sleep, sit on the terrace. :P

Dinner get together at Kundu's. :)

And, of course my mother is super pissed.
Too much money spent on Cabs and food.
At this rate, I think we need to get a monthly card done from the Metro station.
Early morning metro rides.

I need sleep, now.

Today morning, Phutush finally spoke about Rejections, making the first move and other things as well, and Punku understood. :)

Get together at KC's in 2 hours. Salt lake and other surrounding areas have become my house, sheesh. :|

I've become such a Parshe lover.

Lookatthatgrin

I love my hair, more than anyone elses' now. :D

Puma. :(

:| So Debb and I were walking around at night, my wrist (watch) bumped into the steel of the white sumo and the belt came off, and I feel so low after that, is it worth repairing, not to mention the fact that I had spent only $1 for it. I don't know, pretty low, till Mainland China happens, tonight. :( :(

Or, maybe I will just buy a different watch now. Time to move on. :|

Is this for real or what ?

The people, I have met through her are the best and most amazing people, I have come across in a long long time.

SB (Her best friend)
KSC(Even though I knew him, but now it's all so different)

To you KC,
They don't make, too many of you, anymore.
Hug. :P

You will cook for us, and we will be there, soon. :)

Punku and Puchku :)

Can't wait for the next trip. :P

It just hurts to see the skin ripped off from the side of my neck. :( :'(
Physical pain, I just hate, but of course this wasn't done so I could suffer, it was very playful.

Scorpions, I tell ye. :(

More..

- Making a fool out of myself. :|

- Trippy.

- Blurry.

Plan is to go to SB's, then head to SCM. Catch a movie, pick up booze, get pissed drunk and head to the station and leave for D.

Twin's in town, unable to meet, me out of town, she busy with weddings, ah well. :)

Debb mohawk-ed my hair, today morning. ;)

A and B fall apart. B was asked by C, whether he wants to meet me or not, B refuses outright.
This is what loyalty should be, about.

Sigh, it's time that I have to learn what loyalty is all about from that low life. But, I have to and I must. :)

Some lesson, this is going to be.

On a fun note, I can't wait for Tuesday, 11:15 am.

I can not speak for anybody else, but I know you are there for me. :) :)

Hee haw. :D

The disappearance of Alice creed.
Dear John.
The Shawshank redemption.
Dil kabaddi.
Hachiko.
A tale of two sisters.
17 again.
The tourist.
No one killed Jessica.

Eleven hours off each other. :)
Seven hours spent sleeping, one hour traveling, three hours irritating the hell out of others.

Strange, we could never figure each other out.
Who would have thought ?

But, life goes on. :)
No hard feelings.

:P :P :P
Such mindless fun.

So, a lot of FB shit happened at work, and all because of PC's irresponsibility, even though I was clueless, I was dragged into it, because the other four were there. :|

I mean, what is the problem..
Live and let live. :X

Thank God, I've disabled everything, Gtalk/FB/Twitter. Now my new phone rocks, and everything can be done from there itself. But, this IS good. :)

Can't wait to beat up PC. :X :X :X :X :X :X :X :X :X

Can't wait to go to Ford Radisson, either.

Michelle,

Please, give me what I want. Please. :(

It's been a while, I've lusted after something this bad. Materialistically , that is. I can even afford this, but .. Michelle helppppppppppppppppppppp. :'(

PS- On second thoughts, I'm in love with Swiss Hotel. :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P

In the nights of old, I always wished in the longest year that had me down.

Since you've been gone I've been lost inside
Tried and failed as we walked by the riverside
Oh, I wish you could see the love in her eyes
The best friend that eluded you, lost in time
Burned alive in the heat of a grieving mind...

Somebody said to me today, You have Red Bull running in your blood.

No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
No, I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day maybe we'll meet again
NO NO NO NO.

So, winter is here to stay. :)

The moment he laid an eye on me he knew, I was his partner in crime. :P

And the kid in the head, finally rests in peace.

Dhur, poser. :P

So serious. :|

Addicted to three things at present.

Soccer
Sleeping (Did I just say that ?)
Checking out new places.

Either, I'm eating Caramel popcorn and watching Soccerrrrr. ;)
Or, I'm sleeping
Or, I'm out, doing this or that with someone or the other.

Winter, I love you. Please stay.

Lesson two.
Learn to say No to yourself, you must be strict with yourself at all times. Slipping is not even an option, anymore.

It will teach you and make you learn a lot about yourself and help you in the long run.

PC- Hahahahahahahahhaha.
Me- :| What ?
PC- This is so much of fun, to see you struggling with your new phone
ME- :| Just you wait. :X
PC- How long do you take to send a message to someone ?
Me- I'm getting used to the phone. Now shush.
PC- Continue with your typo, blah blah blah.. new phone.

And they continue to make fun. :(

Okay, two songs.. I've managed to totally distort..

First is 'Party people, it's Friday night..' Distortion is Shiny people, shady people, stalky people, etc. :|

Second is 'I kissed a girl, I liked it..' Distortion, I ate a chocolate I liked it, I fell down, I liked it, I went for a spin, I liked it, etc. :@ It never stops, does it ? Argh :X

I love you.
No, *nods head* When you love someone, you do everything you can, to care for them.
:| True that.

Peaceful warrior.
Micmacs.
Dirty pretty things.
Oxford murders.
Iqbal.
Daybreakers.
Devil.
What happens in Vegas.
Black swan.

Watched Aarekti premer golpo, fell in love. Rituporno in that movie/outfit/hairstyle was mindblowing, God knows why her parents didn't like the movie, I enjoyed it so much. I loved Chappal Bhadhuri as well, cute old man. :) Headed to The Sushi Oke, of course I hated the place, give me Chinese, anyday. :(

Me wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt Chinese.
Went back to Biscotti again to buy Chocolate tart and Chocolate chip muffin, I'm a happy kid now. :P Booooooo !!

D and I fought on the 30th night, Kundu tried to calm me down, as usual I wouldn't listen, later he told me I did say the thing which started the fight because he heard it, I said I didn't, I swore. That was followed by a quiet dinner, where I didn't say a thing, later on in the morning (31st) I was singing to myself where I forgot half the lyrics, when Pratik buzzed on IM about an impromptu plan, I was game, went down had chaa, threw around 20 bhars on each other and went crazy.


Then, at around 8:30am, he asked me whether I would really extend, I said I would, if the other one did, and we all extended, went out for Tees maar khan where we laughed silly and then for Gullivers travels, had super awesome fun, ate, drank and gossiped, and then came home and crashed, woke up in the evening, went out for pastries and tea to Flury's, stayed at home for the night to watch Devil. :)

Something very odd happened today, I was singing My twin, and then I didn't know the lyrics anymore, my favorite lines, I had to Google it.

I think of love, I like it pass. It feels like fire, it won't last

And, I'm beginning to really like Rainroom.

:| Yes, that is me. I'm a super dumbo.

Anyway, The Tourist doesn't have the torrent, but Black Swan does, I could have sworn after downloading the movie, it would have been a work print, but hell no, it is DVDRIP, oh nice. But, I still want Tourist. :(

*throws a tantrum, but fails to get noticed as usual*
I WANT TOURIST. :X

Lesson one.
Never feel sorry for anybody, because sooner or later you will start to feel sorry for yourself.

And then there will be nobody, who will feel sorry for you. Nobody, you are on your own.

Now I don't remember, the last time I was actually good to a friend. :(

I don't. It has all vanished, gone down the drain and been flushed. I'm not loyal, not how I used to be.

At some point, everything stands all the same.

God, Debb looked awesome last night in heels, I didn't even realize how short she was till then, either she looked good being tall as me, or she just looked fab in heels. :)

Flury's was fun as usual, I have to get hold of those pictures, they are super cool and I got dissed for not ... ;)

Can't wait for the 25th, we've already made plans to hang out at S's, and then go for his friend's house party and then a long spin. I can't wait. Today's the last day at work, till I see all of them after a week.

Miss. :(
But then again, it's always been out of sight out of mind, for you. You absolutely go crazy when you see me, you sulk when I ignore you, and when I am not with you, you forget me, I go off your mind. Suits me fine, because I'm not involved with you. :P Muah.
Yesyes, I like you too.

Anymore, no one's mind is their own. You can't concentrate. You can't think. There's always some noise worming in. Singers shouting. Dead people laughing. Actors crying. All these little doses of emotion. Someone's always spraying the air with their mood.

What awesome breakfast !!

Garlic bread with cheese, chicken sausages, and bacon and black coffee. :P

Took me years to appreciate black coffee, and now I love it like crazy.

And, I just finished one pound of Plum cake, all by myself. :P

The murderer, the victim, the witness, each of us thinks our role is the lead.

Dear Migraine,
Please go away, I'm dying here.
Much love Crocin Pain Relief. :|

Vogue on location.
The fashion photographer inside my head, yelling:
Give me wonder, baby.
Flash.
Give me amazement.
Flash.

El Espinazo del Diablo.
Fight club.
The invisible.
Splice.
Shallow grave.
Unknown.
500 days of summer.
Wrong turn.
El Orfanato.