Mary Kom. Finding Fanny. Khoobsurat. Kai po che. See girl run. Lolita's club. Bang bang. Horrible boses. Enemy. The double. The normal heart. Dot the I. The riot club. Ek villian. Still Alice. The judge. Baby. Carrie. The quiet ones. Shamitabh. Badlapur. Taken 3 NH10 Annabelle. Whiplash. If I stay. Days of future past. Zid. Boyhood. The wolf of the Wall street. Cake. Wild tales. Margarita with a straw. The grand Budapest hotel. Nightcrawler. Piku. The babadook.

Now you see me. The accidental husband. Sixteen. Chennai expresss. Aashqui 2. Life of Pi. Blue is the warmest colour. Warm bodies. Beautiful creatures. Queen. Trance. Catching fire- Hunger games. 12 years a slave. Blue jasmine. Yaariyan. Hasee toh phasee. Oculus. 2 states. The fault in our stars. Stuck in love. Ten years. Bhaag Milkha Bhaag. Revolver rani. Captain America- The first Avenger. Dangerous minds. Eat pray love. Under the skin. Gunday. Rise: Blood hunter. Mardaani.

This is how I am penalized for being there for somebody, who is ill, who happens to be my best friend, whom I love and whom I happened to spend the last night with. #NoFoodYetAgain.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! My burpy best friend. You will never know how much..

I wish I could tell you. I wish I could hear you. I wish I could hold your hand. I miss you. :( That stays, that's always constant, like the way I love you and always will.

RIP Nex!

I have a lot to say, but I clearly don't have enough words to express the way I feel today.

The perfect host. The vicious kind. Picture perfect. English Vinglish. The perks of being a wallflower. Silver linings playbook. Sinister. Argo. Mietras duermes. Exotica. City of God. Silence. Alexandra's project. Celeste and Jesse forever. Albatross. Medianeras. Tyrannosaur. La cara oculta. Doubt. One day. Last night. A moment to remember. Moonrise kingdom. Candy. Storytelling. In search of a midnight kiss. People like us. Love and other drugs. Damage. Always. Identity thief. The five year engagement. Yeopgijeogin geunyeo. Never back down. Mozart and the whale. Deadgirl. Safe haven. Tonight you're mine. Suicide room. Yellow handkerchief. Abhoman. Underworld. Underworld evoulution. Rise of the lycans. Underworld awakening. Empire records. Stoker. Ranjhana. Ghanchaakar, Tiny furniture. No strings attached. The scenet of a woman. Meet joe black. Hunger games. In time. Disconnect. Side effects. Chasing liberty. Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

I miss you. I love you. Will it ever die out ? Tell me, NO!

Losing my wings.

In utter disbelief, I sit and cry at the choice she made. Him Vs Me. Always him, nothing changes in these seven years. Nothing. I for once even had the gall to ask her to make a choice, knowingly perfectly well what the outcome would be. Truth be told, I’m not surprised, I think, I’m a little disappointed at everything that panned out last night. Why isn’t there somebody who can handle me or my intensity? I feel so numb, even to get to the laptop, turn it on, and punch in some words took me nine and a half hours. I don’t have a friend left , I miss her terribly, but choices must be made, as firm as I have to be with her, I have to be with myself too, it’s not for my benefit, it won’t get me anywhere, I hope she realizes in time, that all I do, is for her. I tread alone, carefully. How does one even breathe? How do they live? How do they hurt, and not call back? How do you sit and see someone crying for hours, and not console, only thinking about how I would react. I don’t have words left, I’m hurting and you’ve been hurt. Hopefully, you will have your head and your guy, as you would like them. I sign off. Thanks for the love. All of it. Don't tell me, that I am taking the easy way out.

As I'm dying, this is the last picture in my head. When we were just starting out as friends all over again.

It is getting worse as I type.

So, yes. I have been away for a while, because I was having a pretty moderate time if not good. But, Now I'm back, all alone, in this hole. Thought for the day: I thought money was the hardest thing to give away, apparently it's not, it's TIME. You don't want to give time to somebody because you don't have enough love or respect for them, there could be another conclusion to this, when you are available for somebody all the time, they don't appreciate your value. Yes, now I'm valueless. I have no value, maybe I did not, before as well, but now I realize it. I have loved like there was no tomorrow. I really don't deserve anything. I have nothing to give to anyone anymore. I'm so heartbroken, and for the love of God, I don't know what's wrong with me, since last evening. I'm in so much of pain. I miss those moments. Those walks, those conversation. How does one start from the scratch, when his life has been turned upside down ? I need a little prayer. The love of my life is gone along with my best friend, and something just died in me.

Batman begins. Midnight in Paris. Rocky. Hallam foe. Half Nelson. American reunion. Love happens. Ishaqzaade. Roger dodger. The kids are all right. Perfect sense. Carnage. Hate story. Under the Tuscan sun. A short story about love. Teenage dirtbag. Some kind of wonderful.' Rudy. Outside providence. Hemlock society. Thomas.est.Amoureux. Ruby Sparks.

Shame. The Descendants. Vicky donor. Puncture. The perfect score. Band baaja baarat. REC. Koyekti meyer golpo. We need to talk about Kevin.

Perfume. Like crazy. Bring it on. Hall pass. The art of getting by. Ishqiya. The vow. Miss Pettigrew lives for a day. The prestige.

Twelve monkeys.
Drive.
Crazy, stupid, love.
Martha March May Marlene.
Untraceable.
The dark knight.
Suicide club.
Murder.
Hostel.
The dirty picture.
Ek main aur ekk tu.

Step up 2.
Sex drive.
Mere brother ki dulhan.
Rockstar.
The girl with the dragon tattoo.
Breaking dawn part 1.
Dalkomhan Insaeng.
Ideas of March.
Mausam.

Was it that easy ? Really ?! Wow! :)

Valentine.
Moonlight mile.
The shrine.
Water for elephants.
Flypaper
Antichrist.
Easy A.
Date night.
Eagle eye.
Ghosts of girlfriends past.

The year that was (still is)

Every year, I spend some odd minutes filling out this same tag, but this year I was waiting eagerly to fill this up.

Almost the same tag. Different answers, this year.

"sort of a year end ritual. to remind me of the smiles, more than the tears. its strange to realize how easy it is to forget times that made you smile. but not so easy to forget the times that hurt."

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?

Bought a refrigerator for the house.

2. Did you keep your new years resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I do not generally make any, but this year I would, for the next year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

I don’t remember.

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

February 15th night, it sucked ass and changed me as a person, and I remain changed.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Growing and shutting the fuck up.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Not being able to keep a promise to myself.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Yes, three months of, on and off fever and skin allergies.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

Mine, and I was beginning to lose it.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

People who mattered then, I cut them out for good.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Food, movies and trips.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

It was a long time ago, going to office. (Jan and Feb)

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?

Aahatein.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

Sadder and lonlier, because I made my mind about certain things.

19. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Saved money.

20. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Nothing really, I've always wanted to control myself from doing certain things or saying certain things which might seem foolish later on, and with every passing day, I tell myself that, it's not MY business to open my mouth (at least not the first one to do so)

21. How will you be spending Christmas?

Christmas already spent with a close group of people.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?

No, not love.

23. How many one night stands?

None, thankfully.

24. What was your favourite TV programme?

Glee, Grey's Anatomy and Revenge (Actually the last one, because the show itself was aired first in '11)


26. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Adele.

27. What did you want and get?

A Blackberry. :)

28. What did you want and not get?

I do not want to sound like a kid here, so I refrain.

29. What was your favourite film of this year?

I discovered the Bourne series and Girl with the tattoo trilogy (even though they were released much earlier)

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Took friends out to Creperie, way too old.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Money, always.

32. What kept you sane?

My post-its on my laptop.

33. Who was the worst new person you met?

No one.

34. Who was the best new person you met?

Aman Singh Chauhan.

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.

Any thing I get attached to, will always break MY heart, there fore- No attachements.

Festen
The killing room.
Blue valentine.
Unknown.
The private lives of Pippa Lee.
Final destination 5.
Paranormal activity 3.
The end of the affair.
Hanna.
The whistleblower.
The town.