Something very odd happened today, I was singing My twin, and then I didn't know the lyrics anymore, my favorite lines, I had to Google it.

I think of love, I like it pass. It feels like fire, it won't last

And, I'm beginning to really like Rainroom.

:| Yes, that is me. I'm a super dumbo.

Anyway, The Tourist doesn't have the torrent, but Black Swan does, I could have sworn after downloading the movie, it would have been a work print, but hell no, it is DVDRIP, oh nice. But, I still want Tourist. :(

*throws a tantrum, but fails to get noticed as usual*
I WANT TOURIST. :X

Lesson one.
Never feel sorry for anybody, because sooner or later you will start to feel sorry for yourself.

And then there will be nobody, who will feel sorry for you. Nobody, you are on your own.

Now I don't remember, the last time I was actually good to a friend. :(

I don't. It has all vanished, gone down the drain and been flushed. I'm not loyal, not how I used to be.

At some point, everything stands all the same.

God, Debb looked awesome last night in heels, I didn't even realize how short she was till then, either she looked good being tall as me, or she just looked fab in heels. :)

Flury's was fun as usual, I have to get hold of those pictures, they are super cool and I got dissed for not ... ;)

Can't wait for the 25th, we've already made plans to hang out at S's, and then go for his friend's house party and then a long spin. I can't wait. Today's the last day at work, till I see all of them after a week.

Miss. :(
But then again, it's always been out of sight out of mind, for you. You absolutely go crazy when you see me, you sulk when I ignore you, and when I am not with you, you forget me, I go off your mind. Suits me fine, because I'm not involved with you. :P Muah.
Yesyes, I like you too.

Anymore, no one's mind is their own. You can't concentrate. You can't think. There's always some noise worming in. Singers shouting. Dead people laughing. Actors crying. All these little doses of emotion. Someone's always spraying the air with their mood.

What awesome breakfast !!

Garlic bread with cheese, chicken sausages, and bacon and black coffee. :P

Took me years to appreciate black coffee, and now I love it like crazy.

And, I just finished one pound of Plum cake, all by myself. :P

The murderer, the victim, the witness, each of us thinks our role is the lead.

Dear Migraine,
Please go away, I'm dying here.
Much love Crocin Pain Relief. :|

Vogue on location.
The fashion photographer inside my head, yelling:
Give me wonder, baby.
Flash.
Give me amazement.
Flash.

El Espinazo del Diablo.
Fight club.
The invisible.
Splice.
Shallow grave.
Unknown.
500 days of summer.
Wrong turn.
El Orfanato.

I continue to observe.
Cats are affectionate and playful. These are probably the only two things, that's rubbed off on me. :)

Anyway, you will think the way you want to, I will think the way I want to, but that doesn't change the fact, and we are nowhere without our facts, and in this case, we both are wrong.

Shit happens, and it continues.. :)

What I need to do is fuck up so bad, that I can't save myself.

If emotion can create a physical action, then duplicating the physical action can re-create the emotion.

It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.

Her- Let's go to Marks
Me- Okay, come.
Her- :| I meant 'marks
Me- This is Marks & Spencer *points upwards*
Her- STARMARKS. I can't believe you are so dumb.
Me- *makes a face* What work do you have there ?
Her- Books ?
Me- Which ones, now ?
Her- Diary.
Me- Journal ? :)
Her- *hands over the list*
Me- By Chuck Pal.... *stammers*
Her- Hehehehehe, Palahniuk.
Me- I still can't say it. *Embarrased* But, I want fight Club. :) :)

Yes, terrible things happen, but sometimes those terrible things- they save you.

The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.

Ah, today was fun. :)

Fuck that shit, Maybe you're my schizophrenic hallucination.

1.What time did you get up this morning?

Once at eight am, then eleven thirty.



2. How do you like your steak?

Juicy.



3. What was the 1st film you saw?

Don't remember.



4. What's your favorite TV show?

I don't watch anything on TV these days.



5. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

Rome/London/Prague/New Zealand.



7. What is your favorite cuisine?

Chinese and no second thoughts on that



8. What foods do you dislike?

Squid and Pork.



9. Favorite place to eat?

Peter Cat, One step up, Zaara, Mainland China, The wall, Haka's, Yo China, etc.



10. Favorite Dressing?

Any mayonnaise-based dressing, I guess.



11. What kind of car do you drive?

I don't have one.



12. What are your favorite clothes?

Casuals. Jeans, hoodie, tee, sweatshirt.



13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?

Rome.



14. Cup 1/2 full or 1/2 empty?

Empty empty, always so much that's needed.



15. Where would you want to retire?

Too young to think about retiring.



16. Favorite time of Day?

Evening.



17. Where were you born?

Here, Calcutta.



18. What is your favorite sport to watch?

Soccer.



19. Who do you think will not tag you back?

Nobody.



20. Person you think will tag you back first?

Nobody, again.



21. Who are you most curious about their responses?

Nobody, I don't care about the crowd.



22. Are you a bird Watcher?

Yes. ;)



23. Are you a morning or a night person?

Night.



24. Do you have any pets?

Four, at the moment.



25. Any New or exciting news you'd like to share?

Yes, maybe on Thursday night.



26. What did you want to be when you were little?

A restaurant owner and an Athlete.


27. What is your best childhood memory?

Throwing everything from the balcony, learning to play Cricket, dad making me a Cricket bat, daddy slapping me for the first and the last time, ever.



28. Are you a cat or dog person?

Both. Unbelieveable.



29. What color are your eyes?

They say, it's never black. So, Brown I guess.



30. Always wear your seat belt?

Yepp, all the time. :P



31. Been in a car accident?

No.



32. Any pet peeves?

Not here.



33. Favorite pizza toppings?

Cheese Calzone.



34. Favorite Flower?

Lily, I guess. Or Yellow Rose.



35. Favorite Ice Cream?

chocolate chip and mint.



36. Favorite Famous Food Restaurant?

Famous in what sense ? Mainland China ? :|



37. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?

Not even once.I only took it once.



38. From whom did you get your last email?

Debb.



39. From which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

GAP.



40. Do anything spontaneous lately?

Yes.



41. Like your job?

Yes.



42. Broccoli?

Sure.



43. What was your favorite vacation?

Shantiniketan, '98.



44. Last Person you went to dinner with?

Debb.



45. What are you watching right now?

A song on Youtube.



46. Favorite color?

Black, Navy Blue, Purple, Green and Orange.



47. How many tattoos do you have?

Three.



48. Have you jumped out of a perfectly good airplane?

I wish. :(



49. Are you a good kisser?

No.



50. How tall are you?

5ft 2inches.

Because of the SL pressure, and so much of pressure for call targets and production hours, my leaves are not approved, been asked to take it in January/February.

There's shortage of people in HP, IPG floor !!
Why can't they hire new people ? Why do they have to get people from 6J and KV is beyond me. All this because they have been promised a new site in some international location ? Wasn't Japan enough ? :| Now, what China ? :X

How does it benefit US ? It does not.

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Leaned my lesson to never ignore a Scorpion. :| :@

Maybe self-improvement isn't the answer, maybe self-destruction is.

1. what are three ways to win your heart?

You can not win my heart, I am gone case.



2. do you like lightning?

Do I like lightning ? No, I don't.



3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?

My cousin's. :)



4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?

Been a long time back, so of course I do not remember.



5. rain or sunshine?

Sunshine, always.



6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?

Your place or that place ? ;)



7. biggest turn off?

Not giving me my space.



8. fave movie?

The reader, Wicker Park, Fight club and 21 grams. :D



9. would you date someone who smokes?

Why the hell not ? :|



10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?

Sure thing, as long as he loves me, more that those drugs.



11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?

Hair and smile.



12. would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?

Not presently, my views have changed.



13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?

No.



14. have you ever dated someone more than once?

Lol.



15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?

Mr. Cooper.





16. do you like cuddling?

Yeah, come here.



17. do you hold grudges?

Not for long, but yes I do.



18. do you regret dating anyone?

Nah.



19. hugger or kisser?

Hugger.



20. missing someone?

Not really.



21. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?

I keep learning from the present one, too.



22. are you happier single or in a relationship?

Depends.



23. how important are looks?

Looks are important initially, till I know the person. So to approach the person or be approached, yes looks are very important.



24. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?

Hot, of course. Till I know you are not nice, and when I stop finding you nice, physical beauty won't matter, either. I'm already done with you by then. :)



25. do you stay friends w/ the people you’ve dated?

Again, depends.


26. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?

Depends.



27. do you kiss on the 1st date?

No.



28. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?

Time is very important.



29. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the hell are you”? What do you say back?

"Who do you think I am ?"



30. are you spoiled?

No.



31. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?

Manipulation, intrusion about anything and no trust factor.



32. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?

Haha.



33. did you miss anyone today?

Not yet.



34. last person to see you cry?

Kundu and Debb.



35. Who/what made you cry?

Shite at work.



36. are you a forgiving person?

Yes, I try.



37. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?

What was that, again ?



38. The last person who gave me a hug…

Sand.





39. are most of your friends guys or girls?

Girls. :\



40. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?

Half an hour.



41. how many people do you know of named Adam ?

None.



42. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?

No.



43. what was the last thing you burnt ?

Cigarette



44. what is your full name?

What's in a name ?



45. do you straighten your hair every day?

I don't like straight hair.



46. do you worry about the size of your boobs?

When did this matter ?



47. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?

Sometimes.



48. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?

Hoodie.



49. what color do you absolutely despise?

White.



50. have you ever stolen?

Yes.



51. have you set your hair on fire?

No.



52. do you wear sweat pants?

Yes



53.. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?

WHAT ?



54. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?

Yepp, not recently though.



55. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?

Hell yeah.



56. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:))?

Hugs. :\



57. do you act gangster?

Yo, noway.



58. ever made a prank phone call?

Oh yes, those days !! :(



59.what bill do you hate paying most?

Every other bill. :@



60. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?

Night before yesterday, it was sweet, not romantic in any sense.



61. what did you want to be when you were growing up?

Playboy (Boy). Owning a chain of restaurants. :)



62. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl?

In this weather, have coffee, talk and watch a movie with a girl. *sings* 'I kissed a girl, I liked it.' :|



63. when did you first start feeling older?

I wish I did. It's time I do. But, I don't.



64. favorite guilty pleasure?

Retail therapy. :P



65. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?

Thinking...



66. what famous person would you like to date?

C'mon, he doesn't have to be famous. I will make him famous, he will be famous in my eyes. For my eyes, only. (Oh God, the corniness is getting to me)



67. what do you hate about your school?

Nothing.



68. last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?

Mom's. She sleeps with me anyway, on the days I don't work.



69. have you lost a friend recently?

Lost, in which way ?



70. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?

Yes, oh yes. Such fun.



71. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?

Yes !! :P :X :| :\ :@ Got it ?



72. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?

Forget, I guess.



73. do you give out second chances too easily?

Even third for that matter. Any takers ?



74. is your best friend pretty?

Best friend in my head or the real best friend ?



75. is it awkward when you run into your exes?

I killed them in my head.



76. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

Maybe, school days.



77. can you make yourself cry?

Hell yeah.



78. is your life simple or complicated?

Complicated, and I like it.



79. are you easily confused?

I'm born confused.



80. are you taller than 5′4″?

No.


81. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?

Everyone treats me like crap, so what ?



82. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?

No. Far from it.



83. does everything really happen for a reason?

That's what they say, if you ask me, then I don't have a freakin' clue. *Blows smoke in the air*

Why do people have to fight, when I am in such a good mood ?
All this comes from being public in public places. Anyway, it's not about me, so why should I bother ?

A note to you- I don't know whether you read my blog or not.
Be subtle, please. I know this has a lot to do with age, but at least try. For my sake ? Okay, yours. :)

And, the truth is, I'm very quiet too when there's a phone conference, this is the first time, so it was different. Muah. :)

Extreme ways are back again
Extreme places I didn't know
I broke everything new again
Everything that I'd owned
I threw it out the window; came along
Extreme ways I know will part the colors of my sea
perfect colored me.

Awesome, this is. The feeling I feel and I can almost see it rubbing off, on everyone. Is this how happiness spreads ? :)
I love you, everyone. :P

And you ? Of course. It's been a while, no ? ;)

Thank God, Heart is not where the Head is. :)

Let it last, my happiness. :D

How do I convince someone, I'm not in love anymore ?

Her- Just don't be around ?
Me- No, that can't happen. I'm always there. Even for strangers, come on. I'm weird. :( I want everything at the same time, and not want to get hurt too, is that even possible ?
Her- No, it's not.
Me- See, I have to let this person know, and I don't even want to be rude.
Her- Hahahahahahahahahaha, all the best. :)

Seven years, and all gone.
I deleted my Zilchh blog today, never thought I had it in me. Ah well, some surprise we have there. I don't feel those feelings anymore, heck I'm not even the same anymore.
No regrets.
Just how well all this is turning out to be.

She's in love. I know. Good for her. I wish her all the best. But, I'm not in love. I'm happy with myself, very happy in fact. 72 hours and continuing. It is 23 degrees today. :)

I think, it's time to try out something different. Maybe, green Apple soda, only with you. :)
Next week off, you and I and Prat.
Oh wait, we are to go out drinking next week, no movies. :) Now, in this five days, I need two days off, at least. Rakha and Kundu is back this week. Life is rocking. :P

And this is to you, Iris
I reached out. It worked, thank you so much. You don't read my blog or maybe you do, you made me believe. :)

And..
Some things are just the same, for everything else, there are replacements, and they are bloody easy to find. It is sad but true.
Shit happens, why worry ? ;)

Emotions, drama, broken hearts, and lies
And they say these were the best days of our lives ? :|

Shit happens, and then what ? You die. Thassit. You just die. And no body does anything or bothers to.
It's the way it is. Accept it, and move on.

My head is a lot clearer now. And, only because it's winter here now. I love the roddur so much. No, I don't like komla lebu all that much, but I like the juice. I still continue to hate Apple, and I always will. I hate Tomato juice too. Yuck.

Last evening was fun, we went for the movie, that stupid movie. Prateek was the only one watching the movie, Debb doesn't like Imran Khan, I don't like Deepika, so we kept talking and eating. Had Chocolate tart from Biscotti, then cold coffee and Pizza from Refuel, took pictures. :) She spotted Mango (store) and went crazy, said Mango is in Delhi too, I said I thought it was only in Bombay and now Calcutta, she said, I didn't know anything, I just shrugged to that.

After the movie, we went for a spin. Three people on one bike, went to Park street, had beer , dropped her to the Metro station and then came home.

But, Winter is here. And, it's fun. :D

I would rather spend two whole year grieving over lost love than get over in four months. I didn't get over it in four months but I did get over it in seven. It does not make me feel invincible or indomitable, it just makes me feel fickle and heartless.